I cant shake off this feeling of dread. There is seriously nothing to look forward to. Just one thing after another to do and it ain't fun. Nothing really seems worth while. Life is like a rollar coaster you go up just to speed down. Just let my close my eyes and when I wake up let this whole year have passed. I spent this holiday not riding, not going to Chaing Mai, not slacking. Its unfair.
I have always wondered what would happen if I pressed that big red button.